Just discovered the concept of Tourettic OCD. Finally feels possible to have a huge (unwanted) part of my mental life validated - I can communicate it clearly and others can understand it. And I'm not alone. I have physical premonitary urges, which have moved around my body throughout my life, and kind of mental ones, where I have to eg. repeat words in my head or observe something until my mind feels "just right". I've been objectively functional throughout my life - school, work, relationships (functionality arguable..), but at the cost of near-constant stress and maladaptive coping mechanisms - including isolation/avoidance, substance misuse and heavy tobacco smoking.

I'd love to connect with others who have a similar experience, to share stories & tips and just feel connected - it was extremely powerful for substance addiction already.